Save Yourself
From wooden desks
To white sand beaches
Long winded texts
Elation at your name on my phone
We canoed and traveled
Tasted and explored
You promised
You promised this time
Would be different
Last time was a fluke
You’d changed
You’d healed
From an immature kid
To a self-made man
I wanted to believe you
So I did
I believed when it was easy
When it was hard
And when it was impossible
When no one else did
I thought I needed someone
Our love was not patient
Our love was fleeting
A gust of wind
Just enough to push us together
But not enough
For our sails
To get us to shore
Our boat sank
The moment we stopped treading water
Rushing in from all sides
I had one pail
Against a raging current
You threw your pail at me
And jumped ship
With no warning
Or thought for me
Leaving me to drown
I held fast to my pail
And kept bailing
All on my own
Patching the holes you left
Mending the helm
All on my own
You promised it was different
I promise now I know
You were wrong
I promise
I learned to save myself
I am my own captain
And I won’t ever let myself drown.